Quote Originally Posted by Polymirize
So what are the base tendencies in yourself that you don't like? Why don't you just change them? As in, once you're aware of them, and notice them coming out in your behavior, compensate for them. Be more flexible in your actions. Maybe even apologize if it comes to it. You don't have to be something you don't want to be, and ultimately you're the only one choosing.

Mushrooms might help you notice some of the problems, but they won't help you solve them. It would be silly to think we can change ourselves without a lot of hard work and a certain amount of self-discovery.

Maybe you should change the way you see certain things. Like God. I'm not one to prescribe religion, but maybe there's something outside of yourself that gives some value to your life.

I'm always touched when people say "god bless you", regardless of my lack of "faith" in their god. I don't believe, and I doubt that they believe that demons may enter my body after sneezing, I think it's just a way of expressing care. How can one be so offended?
it's not the fact that i haven't/won't apologize, it's not the fact that now that i'm aware of it i just stop, it's the mere fact that 'i did it' that makes it so horrible, i guess i'm more looking for a way to cope with what i have already done, but i'm not so sure i can refer back to "remember you swore you'd kill yourself before you became that person, and you meant it." see this is my problem, i swore i never would, but becuase i wasn't 'bullied' anymore, i went blind and forgot 'bullying' exist, thus a sudden realization that i became the 'bully' rather than the 'bullied'

on the religion thing, i won't get offended if some stranger says it, i'll just politely ignore it, depending on the person and the cirumstance i might even fake a 'thank you' but if i know you, as in you're a friend or someone i see often, and it's the first time, i'll politely ask you not to say that to me anymore, most leave it at that, it's a simple request is it not? however if it's done after my request not to do it anymore, i take it offensively, becuase a. i feel as if i'm having a religion forced on me, and b. i already asked you not to do it, so if you do it again, you're more than likely just doing it to piss me off.
slipknotpsycho Reviewed by slipknotpsycho on . serious question, need serious answers. what do you do, when you've become the person you hate the most, and it's not something that can just be changed? what is there to do, when you've become everything you despise, and you were just so blind you couldn't see it.. what can you do? Rating: 5