So what are the base tendencies in yourself that you don't like? Why don't you just change them? As in, once you're aware of them, and notice them coming out in your behavior, compensate for them. Be more flexible in your actions. Maybe even apologize if it comes to it. You don't have to be something you don't want to be, and ultimately you're the only one choosing.

Mushrooms might help you notice some of the problems, but they won't help you solve them. It would be silly to think we can change ourselves without a lot of hard work and a certain amount of self-discovery.

Maybe you should change the way you see certain things. Like God. I'm not one to prescribe religion, but maybe there's something outside of yourself that gives some value to your life.

I'm always touched when people say "god bless you", regardless of my lack of "faith" in their god. I don't believe, and I doubt that they believe that demons may enter my body after sneezing, I think it's just a way of expressing care. How can one be so offended?