Unfortunately we all have tough times in life. While I feel your frustration, perhaps you should think of your children first. How are they gonna feel if Mommy abandons them? Also think of the danger of an online "Knight in shining Aluminum", you don't know what you're getting into. You need to seek counseling if only to help you feel better about yourself. I am not a mental health proffesional, and this is not a mental health site. While I wish I could help you in some way, I (like EVERYONE in life) have my own family and issues to deal with. I do wish you all the best.