If you are in fact so attractive and intelligent, then why havent you saught after a man in your area, that way you could still see your kids, its one thing getting a divorce, but its another to be the one who walked out on their kids.

You have a lot of thinking to do, and in my opinion no person who is sane is stupid enough to do this, i mean honestly.

Seek some help, there are many free clinics in each state, just have to find the right one.

Hope this helps.