When the randomist, shittiest things happened to me... I used to blame God. And now I understand that it's God's will. And God is everywhere observing at all times, even from within... every action is judged and God will try and show you what you've done wrong and right. This is called karma, or in the case of the bad things you've done (which we all do) karmic debt. God deals with it all... the actions and the words and the thoughts and your judgements on others and yourself. He can giveth and he can taketh away...

But God is inside you as well... remember... Christ is within. You have the will to do what you will and you have the reasoning to make the right decisions in your life. And the decisions you make will not only impact your future but others' future's as well. Maybe even in the subtlist ways... but to the other people you are affecting, those changes may seem subtle at first but may have huge implications for their future... possibly changing their lifes forever. So be kind... and aim to be a better person. It'll work better for everybody.

We all slip up sometimes... always. Because it's built into our ego... you just need the awareness of when you're doing wrong to be able to make it right.

God is everything and nothing.