Chaoticmom you and I share similar challenges. I have degenerative disk disease which has too caused me great pain. On good days I can nearly forget about it but on bad days I crawl on the floor to the bath, my face burns like I'm bobbing for french fries, I slur my words, the thorny headaches and numbness in my hands and feet cause me to be very clumbsy and my ears ring constantly. Concentrating on anything is futile. I've had all the prescriptions and they made me sleep all day or didn't work. That's no way to live. Enter the healing powers of M. I too faced the challenge of going from an occasional toke to the need for a constant supply. My solution was a green thumb approach ( I have always been a good gardener ). All was well until I sprung a water leak which brought the landlord to the door. The rest of the story sux. I read some of your other posts and I would not advocate NORML because I know that the cops in Columbia watch these organizations closely so they can identify the people who advocate M and later take the "get lucky" approach to law enforcement with them. I worry about being associated with anything so controversial and being identified. I too have found myself trying to hit the block for some weed but that rarely worked out. I found some good guys for about three years in a neighborhood near 5 Points but they suffered a serious setback about a year ago and will not likely be around anytime soon by what I'm reading in the State paper. Best of luck to you with finding a safe and reliable source in your area. I know the challenge all too well.