If your Dr. diagnosed you bipolar..have you ever been prescribed lithium? Bipolar is a chemical imbalance that responds to lithium and diet changes from what I seen. Ask your Dr. about Lithium..I have seen people like you cutting..here native americans do that and its called blood letting..says it makes them feel better..but after taking their meds they stop..I hope you seek treatment again..maybe you need a 2nd opinion on what treatment would be right for you..try another Dr. Fight it and take your life back..beat it..the mental health community is overworked and understaffed so sometimes people do fall through the cracks.