First...alcohol is a depressent, so if your already depressed, its only gonna make it worse. I would stop the booze. I think that doctors are to quick to medicate, and there are a lot of support groups out there where you can discuss and talk to people that are in a similar situation. I find it comforting to be able to talk to someone who actually understands what your going through, and not a doctor who reads it in a book or a parent that might make things worse. Just hang in there, take things one day, hour, or minute at a time. Suicide is not the answer. Hate to sound cliche, but life really is a gift. Get stoned, walk outside, watch clouds, listen to birds, whatever. Hang in there....it will get better.....