Quote Originally Posted by Billionfold
I've posted this somewhere before, but it always cheers me up.

Tom, the next time you feel like you're having a real shitty day, imagine this. You're a siamese twin. Your brother, who is a homosexual, is having company tonight. You only have one ass.
As long as the guy is my age, slim and blonde then thats fine. But trust me, Ill be clenching my cheek as hard as I can. Thats an out hole only.

I think Im going to cut down on the herb and stop the booze. I drink way too much right now. Halfway to becoming a wino - in the mornings I dont just have a glass of orange juice, I have a glass of vodka and orange.
No Im not joking about this. Ive only ever told two people this - Ben and Emily.
Likemclever, I really dont know what triggered this off. All I cant remember is that I just started cutting myself one day. Actually, thinking about it, I can remember some details. I was going through a tough relationship at the time, and she was constantly going in and out of the nuthouse, stopping her meds, taking overdoses and threatening to kill herself. I think I started cutting as a coping mechanism for all of that, but I dont know when I started to feel depressed or suicidal. It just sort of... happened.
I used to go for a run when I felt depressed, but lately my motivation levels have reached zero. Plus, I wouldnt go out round this area past 10pm without some form of protection (not a condom...)
Beachguy, please, carry on with the comments. And everyone else. I take nothing seriously lol.
Jeez, I really dont want to be remembered as an Emo. Even though I have none of the emo traits. Im not skinny, I dont wear horrid thick rimmed glasses, and I listen to decent music. Plus I have short hair and want to tye dye my clothes so I look like an LSD trip when I walk down the street.
Breukelen advocaat (is that French?) Im going to try that diet thing.
And as for getting a hobby... there really isnt anything that interests me in the slightest. I enjoy shooting because Im using a skill thats taken me years to build up, and each time I go down the field I KNOW that 99% of the time I can hit what Im aiming at. It just feels rewarding using a skill thats taken years to build up.

Edit: Ive been like this for a while, and I smoke between 3 and 7 grams a month. Surely thats not classed as 'heavy use'? Although it has been a lot higher lately - coping mechanism - like an ounce a month.