How could I kill myself? Well, I wouldnt want to do something boring like slitting my wrists or shooting myself. Id want to go out with a bang, at least give something for people to remember me by seeing as theres fuck all now. Actually, its weird. I feel a little better now. Not because Ive talked to people, not because 'youve giving me attention' (Im sure some asshole is gonna come up with that sooner or later). I dont know why. My moods swing from 0 to 100 in minutes. Docs have said that Im bipolar and that just makes me shit myself knowing that Im gonna have to cope being like this for years.
I think Ill go act out my nuttyness in my book.
Tom Swierzbinski Reviewed by Tom Swierzbinski on . Do I pray? Do I go to the doctors? Do I tell my shrink all of this? Since I was 15 Ive been seeing a shrink. Done a few overdoses, most just to get rid of the pain but with one I really hoped it would kill me. Took a shitload of tablets (didnt bother counting them, Im not that pathetic) one night, went to sleep and woke up in the morning tripping balls because of all the chemicals that were in my body. It got worse a couple of years ago (when I was 16) at Easter. I talked to my mum about religion for two hours, cooked a curry, ate it then went up to my room. Rating: 5