Do I pray? Do I go to the doctors? Do I tell my shrink all of this?

[JunkYard]

I read the opening post, but didn't bother with the entire thread, so if I repeat something I appologize.

First, you sound like youve been diagnosed bipolar. Is this true? Your taking Depakote, something I once took for my bipolar. Listen, until you get stabalized continue your med regime, man. It helped me tremedously!

I've been suicidal on many occasions, and the only thing I can say is that the meds helped. I stayed away from MJ during these times, and that helped as well. Tell you pdoc everything that doesn't incriminate you. If you're homicidal, I wouldn't tell them unless your ready to be hospitalized. Then again, this may be what's needed right now. I always found hospitalization to be a vacation of sorts. It allowed me to get back on my feet if you will.

Sucicide is not the answer, but you know this. Just allow yourself to be helped, man. There's nothing wrong with taking meds when you need them, and there is nothing wrong with a hospital stay if you're thinking of offing yourself.

Just get some help, man! Let the doctors do what they do, and listen to them.

It's not a bad thing, bro!

JunkYard Reviewed by JunkYard on 06-01-2006. Do I pray? Do I go to the doctors? Do I tell my shrink all of this? Since I was 15 Ive been seeing a shrink. Done a few overdoses, most just to get rid of the pain but with one I really hoped it would kill me. Took a shitload of tablets (didnt bother counting them, Im not that pathetic) one night, went to sleep and woke up in the morning tripping balls because of all the chemicals that were in my body. It got worse a couple of years ago (when I was 16) at Easter. I talked to my mum about religion for two hours, cooked a curry, ate it then went up to my room. Rating: 5

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Wow, I've never been suicidal. I got my head stuck in a bucket once, if that counts.

I think that right now, you're just kinda depressed and nothing makes that much sense. No offense, but you're looking at this from kind of a selfish point of view. Stop thinking about yourself and think about who's lives you truly affect. All of us, for one.

I'd definitely suggest a break from the drugs. All drugs, altogether. They can only enhance your life if you have a life to enhance. Once you realize how great it can be, it'll make everything ten times better.

Change you diet and drug-intake, and it will change your life. For the better, I promise. If it doesn't, then I'll owe you fifty bucks.

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Even though he is being selfish, that's only part of human nature. When you get feeling as down as he is, it's only natural to feel the need to only look out for yourself. He's only thinking of himself because that's who is in the most trouble. He'll pull through.

Yeah, when we're in trouble, we're the only ones we tend to think about. That doesn't mean it's right. To me, suicide is selfish. Then again, I've never really had serious suicidal thoughts, so I guess maybe that's why.

I was about to make a few jokes regarding suicide and clown outfits, but felt it would have been in bad taste. Here's to you, Swizzy.

[Tom Swierzbinski]

I wanna hear the jokes.

Now Im feeling a little better, I can put things in perspective more. Im a very... whats the word... impulsive person. If I feel like shit, Ill go and cut myself or take a load of tablets. I wont wait to feel better, even though I usually do in a couple of hours.
Bollocks. Its like 8.20 and Ive gotta be at Blockbusters in 40 mins. Time for my last spliff for a while and then SSS (Shit, Shower, Shave).
Ill probably end up writing all this down (there is more, but Im not willing to share that with anyone apart from my shrink) then giving it to her. Ill edit the bits about being a homicidal maniac for the time being though.

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Wow, it's 12:30 here in America. Damn Greenwich.

First thing you're gonna wanna do is find another fat funny guy to take your place. That way, your family will be sad, but not too sad. (don't take offense, I'm one too. In fact, I'll do it if the pay's good)

Before you die, open jars for people. Nobody likes opening jars, and at least that way you'll be remembered. Instead of "goodbye tom", it'll be "goodbye tom, the jar-opener"

Next, go ahead and wear a clown suit on the day you plan to do yourself in. That way people will won't be too depressed at your death. I mean, come on, what's funnier than a dead clown?

If you're suicide note's long, make a cliffnote's version. Nobody reads.

[JunkYard]

The spinning skull known as JunkYard has spoken!
Also pay no attention to the man behind the curtains...

Man behind the curtains?

[JunkYard]

Wow, it's 12:30 here in America. Damn Greenwich.

First thing you're gonna wanna do is find another fat funny guy to take your place. That way, your family will be sad, but not too sad. (don't take offense, I'm one too. In fact, I'll do it if the pay's good)

Before you die, open jars for people. Nobody likes opening jars, and at least that way you'll be remembered. Instead of "goodbye tom", it'll be "goodbye tom, the jar-opener"

Next, go ahead and wear a clown suit on the day you plan to do yourself in. That way people will won't be too depressed at your death. I mean, come on, what's funnier than a dead clown?

If you're suicide note's long, make a cliffnote's version. Nobody reads.

Speaking of jars...

If you off yourself, leave a little essence of Tom behind! Seal your farts in the jars, so you'll be remembered when the family opens them.

[alpha kenny wun]

Wow, it's 12:30 here in America. Damn Greenwich.

First thing you're gonna wanna do is find another fat funny guy to take your place. That way, your family will be sad, but not too sad. (don't take offense, I'm one too. In fact, I'll do it if the pay's good)

Before you die, open jars for people. Nobody likes opening jars, and at least that way you'll be remembered. Instead of "goodbye tom", it'll be "goodbye tom, the jar-opener"

Next, go ahead and wear a clown suit on the day you plan to do yourself in. That way people will won't be too depressed at your death. I mean, come on, what's funnier than a dead clown?

If you're suicide note's long, make a cliffnote's version. Nobody reads.

I think thats the best advice yet. Almost peed my pants. You should be a shrink....or comedian.....good stuff

[Breukelen advocaat]

Breukelen advocaat (is that French?) Im going to try that diet thing.

No, the words are not French, although I believe I have some French ancestry. It's Dutch, and I have some Dutch ancestry, but I've only been to Holland once on vacation. Also, I'm from Brooklyn, NY, and the Dutch settled in Brooklyn in the 17th century.

How Modern Eating Habits May Contribute to Depression
by Ron Hoggan M.A. & James Braly M.D.
http://depression.about.com/cs/diet/a/foodallergies.htm

This ia a very good book (I have a copy) by the authors of the above article:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/158...lance&n=283155

[friendowl]

would you mind if i cut deeply in to your arm
you like the way it feels and i like to cut
its a win win situation

killing yourself is boring
if you really wanna die
you should use that energy
to make changes.

i dont understand how peoplke can flip
out in there minds.
i think when it comes down to it people who kill themselves
are weak and are afraid to live.
to each his own
i like pain
life is pain