yo. Has been good to read through this thread.
Thought id pitch in with my experience. the weed at least contributed to problems. Smoked since early-mid teens maybe weekly maximum then caned it hard from roughly 17 for about five years. The last year or so of that was pretty hellish. Extremely sketchy and anxious most of the time. Was a gradual fade in of these symptoms but ended up being unable to smoke anymore because I was so uncomfortable even around good friends etc. felt like I was going insane even in what actually were (and had been for years), or should be, very relaxing situations. god knows why I carried on for so long but as I say the fade in of the fear I was getting was subtle, I denied that it was happening, and tried to con myself it wasnâ??t. nothing to do with being influenced by others but many mates caned it up pretty hard and I always had enjoyed it too. So have stopped for a year now. Still a complete wreck in any social situation. Ostracised from many old friends because I cant handle seeing people in what should be relaxing situations. Its not quite the same intense discomfort as when I felt dodgy when stoned but still very uncomfortable. Drink too much to cope when with friends I still do see. Probably sounds like ive completely lost it and in some ways I have. Have pretty much ended up with some sort of anxiety disorder. Though it feels like it when in an uncomfortable situation I know that I havenâ??t completely gone because I donâ??t experience (or at least donâ??t think I do, haha) any psychotic symptoms; I just completely cake myself in any situations involving eye contact (quite a few situations!)I realise its completely illogical, try to fight through it but I cant help it when put in many situations. The fact that there are a few people im ok with and I have some good relationships shows that there is some hope. However, It is a complete nightmare basically and is completely fucking up my life and relationships with people. There have been a few other issues going on but im certain this wouldnâ??t have happened if I hadnâ??t blown a good chunk of my mind with pot. Totally not preaching, people can do what they want but too much good gear definitely screws some people. Know a few people whove experienced similar negative effects of weed though not to this extent. Hopefully the anx will go (it needs to) and some evidence of the last year suggests that but it aint budging at the moment. Wondering if anyoneâ??s heard any similar stories/ had similar experiences and what the hell happened to break the person out of their shit!? Know this is a long post and being awake for the last 2 days probably means its pretty damn fragmented but hell