I was diagnosed schizophrenic after not smoking weed for a few years. Then I stupidly went to Amsterdam and sampled the fine wares on show. 3 weeks after returning I had my first major panic attack.. if any of you have seen American Psycho then I was in the sort of state the guy was at the end of that movie. I thought the doctors treating me were all in on the conspiracy to eliminate me. It's funny to look back on now. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger. It's all a learning experience. I just don't give a fuck anymore. Fear is not an option.