Once I shot myself with my .22 air rifle. Docs said I only survived because the pellet ricoched off a tooth. Was I hoping to kill myself? Yes.
Would I do it again? If I felt as bad as that again, yes. Although, there are also other factors that would determine if I did it. No Im not talking about family, girlfriends, friends etc. Im too damn selfish to give a shit about all of them when Im feeling depressed.