Your thoughts are similar to a poem I wrote. This is what I do everytime I feel depressed, and have suicide thoughts, I escape to nature.

Natural Escape

Observe the beauty around your eyes

Digest the sounds and the natural high

Reflections of nature's mirror

Gauging your soul by the river

The trees, the greenery, the liberation

Escaping the modern distraction

Computers, cell phones, electronics

disconnection, and political phonics

hatred, racism, and soul decay

humanity slowly being lead astray

Escape your materials for a moment

To see the world still has charm.