Its weird tho, like about a year ago I actually managed to just sit there and litteraly think of nothing, not a thought at all just calm. Now I find out thats what people are going for when they meditate. But now Ivbe let it go and my head is full of thoughts and I feel differant somehow. And now you guys are saying shit like EGO is ya pretty much what I am going through now, almost like a dream of what shit is like, when before everything just was, now Im overthinking overanalizeing just about everything.