Btw i love your avatar! And i totally agree with you, i found the hardest part of my life where i struggled the most in my life (which is right now) that transition from innocence and then being thrown into the world.
I think i was naive to believe the whole world was like me and wanted peace and happiness.


Feeling like you have to compete with the rest of the world. I have the mindset, You're in existence for a blink of an eye, In "earth terms". Why not enjoy youself? Lay in a field of flowers with marijuana burning by your mouth and shoorms turning in your stomach, away from the city, away from pain, away from the pointless wars you wage with other human-beings. No one asked for this life on plant earth. That decision was made up for you be your parents. We've all had childhood scars growing up. I still wonder how we all carry on, You have to be cut throat, Dog-eat-dog & I just wasn't made out to be like that...Dont get me wrong, I love people. I just wish the "system" of working and competing until you die has messed alot of us up.
I agree it is a tough world to keep up in and tho i would love to just lay in a field of flowers.. I know that can't happen because i have a life to live so i just learned to keep up with the rest of the world. But It does depress me that some people are assholes that go out of their way to make you're life more miserable so then thats when i was like why dont we all just smoke a joing and lay in a field of flowers.

I think about this all the time. Sometimes I think life is pointless. Whats after work? More work and more assholes. I like people when they're not competing with you all the time! I mean the world sucks people are mean which sucks out alot of happiness from me and whats life without happiness? Everywhere I go, when people interact its all just a superiority game whose better than who? Who can outdo who? Who can come out on the top? Where all the hippies who dont care about this stuff?! Except you guys, I've met loads of assholes.