Dude I don't wanna come across as a priest but you ever go to church or anything man? I mean seriously give it a chance and it will change your life. but anyways don't give up on life, trust me ive been in your shoes. Iam out of school 2 years now and ive been going to college. I thought I would hate it but its a totally diff. experience w/ people who know their shit and you have a chance to get away from home and be yourself as well as get to know what you want. so try it out man. but anyways hope all goes well.

take it easy.