Oh yeah, after I started getting used to smoking, I agree that the first 5 times are a learning experiences. even after my paranoia went away gradually after getting used to it, my arms would twitch, my back muscles would twitch whenever it was about to kick in, and my mouth would get dry. Now, that stuff doesn't happen, and if it does, I don't notice it, becuas eI'm just looking forward for the GOOD stuff to happen. Like walkikng and not feeling like you'r ewalking, or looking at your legs and they look really far away, and listening to music and you can hear all the instruments perfectly, and it all sounds SO much better (especially NIN's "the perfect drug", the drums suond amazing) Food tastes better, random things that aren't funny will make you laugh, and if you just smoke by yourself, and relax, your mind will wander and you'll think of amazing things, and come up with conclusions for questions you've always wondered.
MARIJUANA IS AMAZING.
it's just if yoyu dont know what to expect, it will freak you out. just like being colorblind. Now, i'm sure that girls dad wouldn't freak out, if he had many surguries to gradually introduce colors, if that's possible, that way he'd have a time to get used to it. My first experience was negative, because I used to have asthma, so I knew how to inhale really deeply, becauwse of previous inhalers. Well, my friend had 2 chronic joints, and also a huge ass bowl, and I smoked the most out of all of them even though they were experienced. I thought by smoking more, things would be funny. I was caught way off guard while walking back to my house, when it actually kicked it. It traumatised me, where I'd start "feeling high" juts by mention of weed, and I'd start crying and freaking out. Not possible? Look up Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
I haven't been off of my Paxil, but I'ev been smoking a shit load of weed and loving it. Hopefully if I ever go off of my Paxil, I'll still be able to enjoy weed without getting anxiety, and if I do get anxiety, at least I know it will go away.
Just relax and smoke
Peace,
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