Penguin, i know how you feel. Sometimesa mother doesnt act like a proper mother and you just dont have the relationship you would have with a normal loving mother. My mother never cared about me, all she cared about was her heroin. We had some rough times, but i livewith my grandmother (let me tell you your grams is way cooler) and my mom is sober.

Just hang in there, and remind yourself there will be a day when you are on your own and there will be no more family drama.