I've decided to give up drugs and alcohol. Mostly cuz I feel stoned or drunk anyways and last night when I drank even though I only had a 40 it just wasn't enjoyable i had to keep bouncing so i wouldn't feel to nauseous. the last few times i smoked weed I heard voices (and a few times w/o drugs[i heard voices]) so I figure whatever damage I've done (I doubt its from weed probably from the DXM) is done but I shouldn't entice it by falling into old patterns.also this is after not doing anything since febuary.


I'm not doing this for anyone other than myself. I can't go on living like this I don't think drugs are meant for me. They are meant for some people, but for others then cause nothing but heartache and detachment from reality when ever I'm on anything whether it's alcohol, weed or whatever I can't figure out what is real. Their's also been times i don't know what is happening is real and been perfectly sober like here's an exerpt from my live journal.

"Losing My mind!

and it sucks. I just wanted to say if you've ever heard voices then you'll understand if not then you can only guess. So out of the blue I start hearing the voice of this little girl talking about anti-semetism and preaching Hitler's philosphy it goes on for a night I don't even get my Humanties done because of the bitch.But she sounds so sweet that you want to believe what she is saying is true but you know that she's evil. that night I have a dream about a conspiracy where the US Government caused the Tsunamis because in my dream dolphins controlled the waves so the Govn't sent out this sonar missle that disoriented the dolphins causing the tsunami this was so we could go in and help because of the war in Iraq and how that made us look at the time. the sucky part is I wasn't on drugs"

two nights later I heard a man's voice that was creepy telling me if the girl spoke again to locate the spot in my head she was coming from put a gun up to it and pull the trigger.

I love most of you have good lives and I will continue to support the legalization of Weed.
prplchknz Reviewed by prplchknz on . so long and thanks for everything I've decided to give up drugs and alcohol. Mostly cuz I feel stoned or drunk anyways and last night when I drank even though I only had a 40 it just wasn't enjoyable i had to keep bouncing so i wouldn't feel to nauseous. the last few times i smoked weed I heard voices (and a few times w/o drugs) so I figure whatever damage I've done (I doubt its from weed probably from the DXM) is done but I shouldn't entice it by falling into old patterns.also this is after not doing anything since febuary. Rating: 5