off my chest

[LIP]

Im sorry man, i've seen that kinda thing and i know exacly how you feel, but are you phycic?

[friendowl]

again thank you guys
today is a struggle
no one around me knows
about what happened
the thing thats hardest for me
is to do nothing
i am a doer not a sayer
if it wasnt for my kids
id be out hunting right now
im naturally born
so its hard for me to do nothing

[da haze meister]

damn dude
i cant even imagine how you are feeling right now
dude
im soooo sorry
from the bottom of my heart
im sorry for your loss dude

[friendowl]

its gonna be another long night
thank you everybody for just
letting me get this shit out

i feel better than i did this morning

[Maui Wowie]

R.I.P P-Wee

[VoidLivesOn]

I love how you guys lap this shit up like dogs.The best part about it all is it could be fake.Like some big reality TV show...AMERICA IS WAITING!

[Jeff Spicoli]

Void, seriously, just this once, shut the fuck up

[da haze meister]

I love how you guys lap this shit up like dogs.The best part about it all is it could be fake.Like some big reality TV show...AMERICA IS WAITING!

yeah dude
i agree with spicoli
this is no time
for you to be spewing bullshit
out of your mouth
fuckin asshole
please shut the fuck up

[slipknotpsycho]

its gonna be another long night
thank you everybody for just
letting me get this shit out

i feel better than i did this morning

ever need to talk privately tell me your sn for aol/aim i have all people blocked not on it, but dude i've been through something very similar, if you ain't got noone else to relate to, to know what you feel, to know those thoughts that go through your head of 'what if' which are the worst, becuase when they're gone, all you can do is think of all the diffrent ways of how you could of saved them, how things could have been diffrent. and that's not a good train of thought, trust me, as long as you blame yourself (not saying you are, but i did, and mom still does) nothing will go away, and it will only get worse... if you plan on going to the funeral do what i did, look him in his 'eyes' or directly at this face, and say everything you wanted to say, after i did all that with my bro i touched his hand, and simply said 'goodbye bro, i hope your better off' and after that it kinda sucked in finally, that he's gone, and ther'es nothing i can, but straighten out me and my other brother (which is impssoble, but someday when i have the means i will) so that my mom (even tho ihate her) doesn't have to go through this all over again. i'm what gives her her strenght, i'm the shoulder she cries on, for hours.. i'm the oldest, so i feel i'ts my responsiblity to try and keep everyone together, try to keep everyone stable.. i don't know how old you are, but i'm 20 and i've gone through in my life more then most average 40 year olds.. i'm very insightful (tho ihave problems putting it in words) and maybe if you feel you need it let me know... send me an email to [email protected] with the name you can be contacted wtih through aim/aol.... and i'm on ALL the time, but i'm not always on aol...

[slipknotpsycho]

I love how you guys lap this shit up like dogs.The best part about it all is it could be fake.Like some big reality TV show...AMERICA IS WAITING!

dude you're just a plain out dickhead. even if he's lying, death isn't something you play around with, you give sympathy to the person, and try to help them cope with their loss, you don't just assume they're lying. friendowl sent bud to people, and they actually got it, he earned much respect from me... look if he's lying (i really don't think you are, i believe you, cuz this world is just fucked, and i know how street life is, i'm not stupid... that type of shit happens daily, it's just mindblowing when it happens to someone you know, and even more so when you're the one holding him afterwards.) then oh well, you don't accuse him of lying, especially on something like this, sure the kid saying he can get an oz of chron. for 20 you can call him a liar .. but just think how shitty you'd feel, if you found it it was true... think before you speak(type)

and all macho bullshit aside, if you lived near me, and i had posted about what happened to my brother, and you said i was lying, i'd beat your head in with a pipe, just for disgracing my brothers death with an insult of it being a lie. and trust me, i have the balls to carry it out... if you wanna find a way out here, then come, otherwise i'm done with the internet fueding for the night

friendowl, i really feel a connection to you, cuz i can almost know exactl what you're going through, the only diffrence is i didn't see it happen, but i can still see it in my mind, they said his organs were all over the place... got my mom into 100's of thousands of dollars of debt it just fucking makes me so angry when i think about it.... personally, if i had the means, i'd find him, and i'd make him suffer, (talking about me and my brother, not you and your hommie) ij'm not talking about hour-two hour beatings.. i'd make him feel the pain my brother had to feel witha gaping whole in his chest, seeing his blood everywhere, the fear of never seeing anyone he loves anymore, for taking one of the only family members that even cared about me, away from me. i won't go into details, but lets just say, i'd kidnap him and start the torture immedieatly, and he'd be found just barely alive in a hosptial parking lot, i also know alot about what the human body can take, and what's fatal and what's not... if i didn't have a wife and kid i loved with all my heart... that mother fucker would have wished he was never born, i'd make his last blood curdling screams 'i'm sorry'... i'd make him suffer for 14 days, starting off with just slight pain, and working my way up to near mortal wounds.... but i kept a clear head... man you can too.. i have faith... just relax, don't watch tv or anyting, don't use any mind altering chemicals, sit in a chair for hours, and just think... not about just anything, just think... if you do it right, you'll know why...