its because you get hit with a massive dose of adrenalin which gives you mad energy but is also a kinda neuroitc and distorted high, it can help you fight off an attacker or chase down a thief, but sometimes it leaves you a little out of it and you fail to make a normal, rational decision.

there is nothing you could've done, save throwing yourself infront of the bullets. But then your little girl wouldn't have a father and that would be even more sad.

i know it may not be time for this but eventually you're going to have to be really strong and swallow all of the pain and suffering and live your life like you have to. Take pride in the fact that you are a survivor, and thats all that ever matters, you will see your homie again when you die, but for now you'll have to get on with life.

i'll shed a tear and dedicate this bowl in front of me entirely to your friend.