this weekend changed me forever
life is like a bad dream and i wanna wake up
this saturday i went on a roadtrip with my son
to santa paula canyon for some hiking.
during our hike i had a real vivid vision that my
two year old was shot by a stray bullet at the party
that she was going to.it really scared me to the point
where i turned around and drove home.
i called on the cell phone to check but got no answer

around 9pm a car pulls up to my house.its the homie p-wee
he tells me that the party is good and lets go.
i wanted to see my kid so i went.
she was fine and i felt kind of dumb for tripping
a few minutes later p-wee and another homie want
to blaze a joint so we go to the front.

as we are smoking i hear footsteps running up.
i turn to see a big revolver barrel pointed at my face
i froze.i stared at some guy who i felt was about to shoot me.
i had that moment where i see my life and shit
but he swings the gun to my left and shoots p-wee point blank
in the chest twice.
i am fucking dead is what im thinking.i seen p-wee fall and blood everywhere.
the shooter runs away and im on the floor holding my homie.
he's bleeding bad and breathing weird.he looked peacefull
he took two last lil breaths and thats it.as i lay there holding
my dead homie something inside of me snapped.
i dont know what it was that broke but i am not the same.
i think that i am going insane.when his mom and sister seen him
laid out the cries they made broke my heart.the pain they are feeling is
unimaginable.
i myself am fucked up in the head from this.when i look at my hands
i still see blood on em.smoking weed dont help the only thing that
seems to help me right now is alcohol.ive been drunk for two days.

i just needed to get this off my chest cuz i cant really talk to anyone
about how i feel.i am so grouchy ifeel like destroying something
friendowl Reviewed by friendowl on . off my chest this weekend changed me forever life is like a bad dream and i wanna wake up this saturday i went on a roadtrip with my son to santa paula canyon for some hiking. during our hike i had a real vivid vision that my two year old was shot by a stray bullet at the party that she was going to.it really scared me to the point where i turned around and drove home. i called on the cell phone to check but got no answer Rating: 5