Yea, I know the first what two, three months, I'm expecting maybe an hour total sleep. Just knowing that all that hard work is gonna produce a happy healthy intelligent person just makes me smile. I've got a friend who had a kid early in life (I'm basically the godfather behind his parents). I was there when he was born. There for his 1st birthday and christmas. I've got to watch him grow from a little infant and now he's walking around calling me uncle ben. It's killing me. Everytime I leave thier house to go home I get a little sad. Both to be leaving him and knowing that I don't have anyone like that waiting for me. Someone who lights up just seeing you come home. Knowing that you're the only person that can make him happy at times, and getting to teach him all the things my dad tought me. I know if I'm lucky it'll happen. When we do start trying again, I'm going to the Dr first to get checked out then my wife (guys problems are a lot easier to fix than a girls). If we're both lucky we'll be able to get it done.