I had a similiar experiance a while ago. I know i'm younger than you, maryjanemama, so my history with her didn't go as far back as your with your ex, i mean i would have been 7 when you were with him lol, but it's the same kinda thing..

I was walking down the road when I bumped into this girl I used to know. She had been my best friend for about 5 years, but i had known her for about 10 years before that. We were the best of best friends, but, as alot of guys do, I started wanting to be more than 'just friends'. But, before I even let on to anyone how I felt, she, Amy, hooked up with my best male friend. So, out of respect for both of them, I kept my mouth shut. Anyway, as me and her got older our lives changed and we started seeing eachother less and less, to the disappiontment of both of us, because, I found out one night, that she had similiar feelings for me as I had for her. It used to kill me when I saw them together... Anyway, I was walking down the road one day and bumped into her.. she invited me round to hers for a smoke, but I didn't know that by "hers" she meant "her and her boyfriend's apartment".. so when I got there, he was there too.. I got on with him well enough, he was a nice guy. I would have been angry if he had been a complete tosser, because she can do better, but in my opinion he seemed deserving of her.. I know this might sound wierd but these were my feelings at the time. anyway, as we smoked more and more and were reminiscing, he seemed to get slightly jealous because he could sense the bond between us that we were rekindling.. He left, looking slightly angry so it was just me and her.. it was awkward at first.. we kept sneeking looks at eachother then looking away when we saw the other was looking too.. it was one of those situations.. like you said maryjanemama, it was like being back in the past, not like I was falling for her, but like I had realised I never stopped caring for her in the first place.. eventually, we started talking about when she hooked up with my friend, and how we both felt about eachother.. I wanted to make a move and I knew she wouldnt have stopped me, I could tell that she felt the same, but still out of respect for her and her boyfriend and their relationship I didn't and tried to keep it just friendly.. it was so hard, and it hurt me to have to do it, I wished more than anythin that she didn't have a boyfriend and that he could have walked in at any second, I hated it.. anyway, I left that night not feeling happy but feeling disappointed, like I had lost something, like I had one last chance to get with someone that I had wanted to be with for years.. it wasn't a nice feeling, and I haven't seen her since.. I dunno what would happen if I saw her again and she was single.. but I can only hope, eh?
GHoSToKeR Reviewed by GHoSToKeR on . Smoking with old friends... I posted about this in another thread but I think it needs it's own thread. I just spent the afternoon with an old boyfriend, we smoked over and over, and talked about life. We talked about now and 10 years ago when we dated. Now we are totally just friends, of course, but for about 3 hours today I felt like a teenager again. He got out his guitar and played songs, some he'd even written for me back in the day. Suddenly, I felt like it was 1993-1995, smoked up and in love with a chain Rating: 5