I have some bad problems. I have finally hit the stage that every1 warned me about but i always laughed about.
I am addicted. I started off just dealing for a while. THen i started smoking weed for a few years almost everyday. THen i got on probation and decided i needed to try some other drugs starting with cocaine. Now i have done many of the popular "hard" drugs out their and now im fucked. Especially because i have been snorting buprenorphine for about 60+ days straight and now i have run out. THere use to be a good supply of a few other drugs nearby but some little rich bitch bought i t all up with his mommy and daddy;s money for almost double the price. My sources either cannot get buprenorphine due to the strict rehab-only watch on it and my other source got, a good friend of mine, got shot and killed buying drugs in the city. Evven with the death of a close friend i still crave any drug i can get my hands on except pot. I have also been using cocaine and adderall frequently and whenever i got tired and wanted to sleep at night buprenorphine(suboxone) came to the rescure. That's what's really horrible about it. You can have the worst hangover you've ever had and you hit a line of that and you feel good for 8 hours and your pain is gone. When i was sick of the stims i would just snort buprenorphine. THough i am pretty much addicted to all of them any random drug will calm my symptoms and i can operate normally(except otc bullshit, sry but once you've tried the hard drugs those are nothing but headaches). BUt all my dealers have are things like coke which i love but it really screws me on the comedown making me lose my mind so i have to put a pause on that. What's worse is i am in highschool and in order to function and do my work i have to be atleast buzzing or else i just refuse to do it i won't even look at it bevause i know my mind is spinning so fast i can't even read. I just sleep, talk, eat, or cause trouble. I know this may appear funny to a lot of you but it's pretty painfull.

My actual question is I have been to the doctor twice this month because my mom is sick of me sleeping in(I'm a senior in h-school). He sends my mom out and asks me my drug abuse history and i tell him i smoked pot everyday for a few years before i got busted but that's all i have told him so far. IF i tell him about the actual truth of my horrible addiction i have hope he may prescribe me something to ease the pain and i an operate again. But i severly fear he might tell my mom and then suggest i go to a rehab center where i will be cut off from all my friends. And this is not a psychiatrist. My parents refuse to take me to one because they know they will hand out scripts with ease. THis is a pediatric doctor. I thought the cutoff age was 18 but i guess not. He suggested medication for depression but if its not gonna give me a buzz then it's another waste of time. I have a buddy who is gonna be coming back from spring break with a nice load of stuff but i don't know if i can wait and if i can get a script for something to calm me thats even better. But if the chances the doc will try to send me to some bs rehab(which for people like me only works for as long i am in the rehab) then i plan to wait.


So i am trying to weigh out the choice. If i get sent to rehab im really gonna be fucked because i lost almost $ i made 15k selling to my massive court fines, jail costs, attorney fees. Now i am actually atleast $3k in debt and i don't want to get a job because my drug problem renders me lazy and nervous, and besides in my small town about a half hour from the city all of snitch bitch kids have spread the word to the hole damn town about me dealing. Most of the employers know who i am and toss my application in the trash can.


So i am looking for some smart opinions on what to do here. Obviously the best opinion would be to admit and do the rehab but rehab alone will not help me at all except give me another bill to pay and cost me time, and maybe even cause me to go to prison when i attempt escaping and beat the hell out of one of the employees their.


Sorry about the whole damn story but i have no clue what to decide. I am going back to the doctor within about 3 weeks. THanks all.
glock18 Reviewed by glock18 on . bad problem, need educated help on decision I have some bad problems. I have finally hit the stage that every1 warned me about but i always laughed about. I am addicted. I started off just dealing for a while. THen i started smoking weed for a few years almost everyday. THen i got on probation and decided i needed to try some other drugs starting with cocaine. Now i have done many of the popular "hard" drugs out their and now im fucked. Especially because i have been snorting buprenorphine for about 60+ days straight and now i have run Rating: 5