I've been thinking about why the person that everyone sees is not truly who I am. That I strive to be perfect on the outside to make everyone happy. That for some reason I think that I cannot truly be myself to anyone. That I can't let them see the real me cause the real me is toxic and eventually over time will poison them.

I think of myself in a little tiki hut on the beach surrounded by tropical forest. With a corona in my hand, just all by myself with no one around, and I wonder why I am extremely happy.

I also wonder why I only feel like myself inside when smoking pot?
And why when I drink beer does it bring out the bad in me and I like it too?

Man...
I need to see a shrink
nuggetgirl Reviewed by nuggetgirl on . What Have You Been Thinking About Today? OK what you been thinking about today people? Random abstract thoughts/concerns, anything that has passed through your mind today...... Iā??ve been thinking about tourettes syndrome. Like, howcome they only say swear words and not just any random words? The bad thoughts have to be in their heads in the 1st place for them to shout it outā?¦..just a random thought. Anyone ever known anyone with tourettes? Iā??ve been thinking about the weather here too, I mean, its the middle of April and Rating: 5