Romans 1
For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened.
I personaly think it is somewhat foolish to put put all your eggs in one basket, and depend on Jesus, or God to save mankind. I think it is far better to glorify God by accepting his creation, and being thankful for what we have, and strive to make life, or his creation a better place for future generations. I'd say that depending on Jesus, or God to do it all would be more 'futile' than for us to take responsibilty for what was given. I question who's hearts are actually 'darkened'...

I'm in it more fore those who will come after me, and Christians seem to be in it more for 'self'.

Surely you understand my delimma when it comes to converting to mainstrean Christianity, when I view it as a very selfish, self serving, and irresponsible religion...