Quote Originally Posted by acrca
ya i try doin that its just that it seems like its gettin harder and harder, its prolly all in my head though. Come to think of it i do have the resta my life to chill, but what if i died tomarrow? then my life wouldnt be as full as it coulda been, but its too unlikly so ur probly right
I'd guess it's getting harder and harder because you're getting burnt out on life. Not the potential for what you could have as life, but the life you currently lead. Forcing yourself to do the same menial tasks every day that you don't enjoy and don't find fulfilling will indeed make you very sick of it all. and eventually you're brain just says "THAT'S ENOUGH" and doesn't want to deal with the same daily repetitious methods by which you live.

The key isn't working harder or indulging video game and space-out time more. You need to make a change in lifestyle, make life feel fresh to you again, remove the elements in life that have made it go stale. While your brain gets exhausted from the repetition and emptiness in regards to work, it also falls into the same pattern with "enjoyment", in which you try to alleviate these feelings with the same old crap, such as playing yet more video games. I would suggest you find something either spiritually, or perhapse just mentally, fulfilling. This could range from meditation, martial arts, going for long walks into the woods, moderate use of hallucinogens/ and possibly in conjunction with meditation, or something else perhapse. The point is to expand your mind, break out of the mental comfort zone, and continuously develope your consciousness.