consider to yourself "i'm on a mind altering drug." it's that simple.

i see people like you kind of like one of those people that gets to the end of a line for a roller coaster and then wants to turn around because it looks too scary. instead, continue in the line, get on the roller coaster, and let it take its course with you.

oh and by the way that is in no means supposed to be disrespectful to you.. i was the exact same way