Awww see thats what I was looking for

My side of the family knows already, they don't care honestly, they told me its my choice and as long as I'm responsible they are fine

But I am seeing the light, and thats what I felt it was too, nothing more than a re-bound, but also I wasn't looking for sex, just someone to talk to, someone to be there, my break up with my bf wasn't messy at all, we are still very good friends, and I now realized why we always got along, communication, which me and the new guy don't seem to have

I've learned alot from this experience, and I've learned to be careful, I honestly thought he wasn't like that, and I was wrong, I guess the whole being dumb-founded by it is whats bothering me the most, to think you know someone and then to see the real side and see the hidden agenda

I'm pretty much over him already, I'm tired of the bullshit and I realized I need a man, not a boy, I wish there was a way I could make him feel my pain, and know what the hell he put me through and the time that I wasted, but hey what doesn't kill you makes you stronger...

I'm not trying to make him out to be a total asshole, he has his moments where he'll go out of his way to make sure I had food in my stomach when I had nothing to eat in a couple of days, and in the beginning things were awesome, I was the happiest I've been in ages, its wasn't even about sex when we first met, it just kind of happened, and which I think was the demise of our friendship, I'm not gonna put the blame solely on him because it takes 2 to tango, all I ever asked for was honesty, had I known this beforehand I would have never slept with him in the first place, I mean yeah the sex was amazing, and I think thats what drew me to him, or at least its what keeps making me give in, he's coming by today, and I'm gonna have a LONG talk with him, and if he lies to me, I'm done with him period, if our friendship means anything to him, then hopefully he'll prove it

Its just that things have been hard for me for a while now, and he was a huge part of my life because he was there for me when I needed someone and he was my rock, for a long time, he would refuse to go out with people and just come over so that i could have company, and there were times when i made advances and he pushed me away, and I could tell he was in the mood, those little things are what makes me so confused about this whole ordeal and make me think it wasn't only sex, and maybe he did actually give a shit about me

but meh what can I do, I'm waiting to see what happens today and if he's bullshiting me i'm done

i'm not gonna lie to you duderino, our conversation yesterday really impacted me alot, it made me realize i got bigger fish to fry, and other things to take care of which i'm gonna get on it, which I want to thank you for, you really showed me a good perspective on my life which I should have been seeing a long time ago