i held my dead brothers hand, even kissed it, and told him 'good bye' i know what you mean about it changing your life, a dead human is so much diffrent than an anima, which unless someone's went through, they REALLY can't tell, or even imagine, the diffrence... seeing a dead person (much less a family member) can really change a person, change their perspective on life.... make them actually think and feel how easily it can be snatched from them, even if they do everything right in that life..... i WILL never go to another funeral in my life, period..... i don't care who it is, i only hope they can understand my decision, i don't want my last thought of anyone i care about to be that ghostly white, lifeless body laying in a coffin, i want my last thought to be of them happy, and when they were alive.... i want my last thought of them to be when we were together, not when they were all alone in their death bed, or assuming 'ghosts' are real, starring at me mourning their death...