the fact that u realized all of that and didnt try to suppress it means you can beat this addiction. this thread proves it. all yah need to do is take a 1 month break, just don't buy it, let your mind go crazy, but do NOT call up that dealer. by the 2nd week, your addiction will be gone. after the 4 weeks are over, u will see pot in a different light.

think about how you began smoking, it was a really really special even that u had to plan for in ahead and you were actually excited to smoke again. i bet that smoking has gotten a lot easier for you now, right? you have a set dealer, you know when you can smoke, and you've probably taken a few chances because you wanted to smoke at that exact moment. that is the root of addiction in my opinion, accessibility.

to control my pot smoking, i've built myself a nice little reward system. i only smoke when i get something productive done that i tell myself beforehand i must have it done or i can not smoke. for example, NO SMOKING until my research paper is completely finished. then, i get my paper done, i feel like i've accomplished something, and i take my newfound good feeling straight into my high. makes every high a lot better when you feel like you're not just a lazy idiot. try both of these out.

good luck, and just remember, control your drugs, don't let them control you.