scaring myself

[BiG WiCkEd]

ok, i know this comes up alot, so im sorry, but im starting to worry. im a freshman in college and ive smoked on and off since my sophomore year. in high school it was a rare treat, monthly to every other month. unless i bought some, which was seldom. now im at school and since december ive smoked everyday. and i know that doesnt seem like a long time, but the idea of going to bed not stoned seems awful to me, and that frightens me. right now im home for spring break, sitting in my living room with my parents, and all i can think about is the spliff i just made thats sitting in my room. i cant wait to smoke it when my parents go to sleep. i have a quarter ounce sitting in my drawer. ive never smoked this much before. ive never owned this much before. ive never felt addicted before, but i do. and i know its not addicting physically, im not stupid. but the fact that my day revolves around when im smoking, that scares me. i feel like since i first started smoking, ive just done it more and more frequently, and now im waiting for the day i smoke 5 or 6 times. i dont want to be brain dead. i dont want people to say, there goes that stoner girl. should i cut back? or am i just being paranoid? has anyone else ever scared themselves with the amount they smoke? sorry for the redundency, and all advice is greatly appreciated

If u dont feel comfortable with the amount your smoking, then stop. I think your overanalyzing the situation a lil too much. It's what we call a bad trip. Just understand that it's only bud and that although it can be cool to be high everyday, u want to cut back on smoking on the weekends only. Don't get paranoid and think shit too deeply, the only way to get ur mind off that is being comfortable. Everything will be cool, dont trip.

WickZ

[infinitereverie]

wow, that's really weird, i am in pretty much the exact same situation as you... i have been smoking for a bit longer than you, but when i went to college my pot usage escalated by a ton...

you know, pixel talked about the "rewards" system... this has really helped me stay in control... one of the biggest things for me is money. i have spent a TON of money on weed, and i'm starting to feel really bad about it... but now, i only smoke when i get done what i need to accomplish for the day... like my homework, going to the gym, or cleaning my room... i still smoke basically the same amount, but i actually get my work done first.

i know i should probably stop for a while, but when i have down time, the first thing i think of doing is smoking and just chilling out. i dont know why i feel so guilty all of a sudden, especially now that i'm getting my work done, but i just feel like i'm lazy when i smoke. the thing is, i am not like the stereotypical lazy stoner... i like to do stuff when i'm high... take walks, drive around, read, write, etc... so its not like i'm not doing ANYTHING...

there is just such a stigma attached to smoking pot... i think i start to believe all the lies and negativity that anti-drug people are always shoving down our throats about how bad it is to smoke...

i dunno. i dont think this made a lot of sense, but i was just really excited when i read your post because i am in the same situation.

[CrAzYpOtHeAd]

Its not CHEMICALLY addictive, but it is physically addictive, but then again isn't everything? Chewing gum constantly will make you wan't to keep chewing it when you can get it

Omg man! THANKS! you made me remember i had a pack of Extra in my pocket!

Nice! :thumbsup:

[Euphoric]

weed makes you smarter, healthier and slows down the aging process. If anything, smoke more.

[CrAzYpOtHeAd]

weed makes you smarter, healthier and slows down the aging process. If anything, smoke more.

I'm hoping to become the worlds oldest man and i'll be on the news and shit and when they ask me what my sectret is i'll say "lots of fruit and veg an alot of GREENS" and then when the report is over i'll sneak behind back and i'll be smokin a HUGE joint with a big old man smile on my face

[dkamthb]

fuck it... haha, pass me a joint. i just talked to my brother, who i smoke with all the time. he just got back from jamaica where he smoked like NUTS. 25 bucks for an ounce. yea, so basically, he was like, get your shit done, then get stoned. and thats what all you guys said. and frankly, im gonna go get my shit done, and then get stoned. because frankly, i was being a poop before!