Quote Originally Posted by chisme
thank you for notflaming i geuss i just find it easier to say this stuff online because i havent gotta look at you guys in the face and i can fire it out better then i will ever beable to say face to face . i cant do that where im from im scared real scared because im falling down on my own and no ones putting a hand out. no one cares these days if youve got a problems your alone with it and if its too big for me to sort on my own im fucked. and now even after years of warnings i alowed myself to go down and little road that now im regretting i didnt listen im not a druggy or alcholic but thats what i mean epople just dont understand there are other things that are worse to live with.
man i didn't think you were an addict or anything, in fact i was pretty sure that wasn't the problem... you are right that we cant really understand though, like i can't step into your life and live it for a day or anything.

But what you say about "no one's putting a hand out"... life isn't always like that, it's not true that no one cares these days, I fucking care I just wish there was more any of us could do. Thanks for talking about it though man, cause you need to hear other people's perspectives on things. You also need to find someone to talk to face to face who will be kind and understanding, I think when you're embarrassed it's harder to believe that people will truly care. I think you know none of your problems right now will last forever, I mean I myself feel like life is too much to handle all the time, it's just a difficult time of life for me, but eventually if you just keep going forward things DO get better. And the more positive attitude you manage to have NOW, the easier it will be to get through the whole thing.

As much as our problems now are worse, when we get suicidal we're still in some ways just like those poor shy teenagers who kill themselves b/c they think social life in high school means everything. Please don't think that a temporary problem means everything.
Trichocereus Panza Reviewed by Trichocereus Panza on . the big one ive decided im finished im done with it all this is just a struggle a long assed one its total bullshit ive come round to idea that im actualy goin to try and blow my brain off the scale. im talking the biggest drug binge ever. ive got 5 months 2 save up every peice of money i got and im gonna buy all the drugs i can lay my mitts on. so far weed - easy acid - on its way from bournmouth cocaine- down the road flat n0. 5 mdma - got 20 mitsibushi;'s one the way from vauxhall Rating: 5