Quote Originally Posted by w4terb0ng
i didn't take care of myself like i should have either. but that doesn't make me wanna smoke crack and shoot heroin and die and shit.


what's so bad?
if you're gonna kill yourself, why do you care if we know what it's about? you'll be dead anyway.

i cant think of a good reason to answer that plz guys dont flame me right now my minds all over the place and half of what im saying isnt comeing out right but i just needed to write that stuff to face up to it seeing it in plane view like that just ...confirm something in my mind no i mean ..look i just had to write that some where i knew at least one person would look because i cant say shit liek this to peole i know because well i geuss in the end im weak but i cant do it man i cant face up and this was just one step closer to facing the reality of who i am and who i turned out to be.

im sorry forget this i feel so stupid for posting that shit^^ i dont wanna die but there must be something better . shit im nearly bawling just saying this because i know whats coming soon one day the herb even wont be able to numb a pain im getting warned of everyday i see people on t.v getting this problem fixed everyday and the result is prestine but im just too broke and im a fucking stoner dont take this as a trichome type thread im not insinuating you charity i just want...i dunno i wanan win the fucking lottery so i can just go to a center and get this sorted...put to sleep and sorted while im asleep wake up and its done....i know its the weak looking way but you have to beleive im so scared of where im gonna have to go...but its comeing and im SCARED SHITLESS its just a countdown right now