Quote Originally Posted by Trichocereus Panza
chisme, I think you are really scaring some of us bro. I'm glad you realize you don't really want to kill yourself; this probably is not the place for you to talk about serious shit as you can see from some of these other posts.

I can't believe people are actually giving recommendations on how to OD and making jokes, how about some real sympathy people. I can't even tell when they're joking or not. It just makes me scared and sad when we're dealing with real human lives and someone's deep personal feelings and we see people responding like this.

I can see you're embarrassed about whatever it is, but maybe it isn't as bad as you think. Fuck dude, do you really think we're judging you? I'm not anyway. Just be calm and think things over, maybe save your money for the medical attention you seem to need/want rather than drugs (although perhaps a GOOD strong experience or two can give you some clarity and perspective to think things through better...)

Have you ever heard of Iboga/Ibogaine? People have used this strong psychedelic to cure themselves of all kinds of unwanted addictions, by allowing them to look back on their lives objectively and calmly. It's possible to see what you've done wrong in the past without judging yourself or thinking it's too late to change. It sounds like you mostly just need a clean slate, THEN you can deal with your problems. So maybe a therapeutic voyage IS in order, just make sure you come back from it, and hopefully you'll re-emerge in better health. okay?

I don't know your situation so this may be all wrong but I hope it works out better than you think.


i dont know what to thin anymore everytime i feel i might be able to get on with it and move on onto something better and the next thing is allways hiding around the corner to smack u bang in the face when you think things are finally looking up its just bollox why doesnt anything good happen anymore? im in a hole and everytime i manage to climb halfway out the gravedigger nammed life piles more dirt down on top of me. it just got worse when i woke up i received a letter form my ex-company saying they wanna claim back £1300 they lent me for a laptop...its like fuckinging hell u just fired me and took all my wages how do u expect me to pay £1300? i got 7 days now ive gotts go citizens advice ......you see what i mean everyday i wake up and theres nothing but shit waiting to ruin another day . why dont i ever get good news? this past year has been to shit .. my mothers liver cancer had to get re-examimed because the docter see';s sumthing weird and if uvb ever heard those words you know wierd can mean so bad ive only had 2 job interviews since i got fired 3 weeks ago and they laughed at me because i was so young looking. i even used my last £10 to get the to the interview and when i arrived they said i was too young even thou they called me from my cv on the net saying my age...how fucked is that? i dunno what to do now i can only hope the citizens advice burea can help me out if not.....well i dunno this is my whole question when is too much too much?