the big one

[VoidLivesOn]

Under the circumstances I wouldn't have a fucking clue what is wrong with you, but if your just wasting all your energy on getting the money to buy the very drugs that will kill you...go ahead and do it.Whats this procedure you were talking about you didn't have enough money for? Why not use the money your using to buy all these drugs and just get fucking fixed.OR ask people to help out? Surely you have friends and family?

VoidLivesOn Reviewed by VoidLivesOn on 03-12-2006. the big one ive decided im finished im done with it all this is just a struggle a long assed one its total bullshit ive come round to idea that im actualy goin to try and blow my brain off the scale. im talking the biggest drug binge ever. ive got 5 months 2 save up every peice of money i got and im gonna buy all the drugs i can lay my mitts on. so far weed - easy acid - on its way from bournmouth cocaine- down the road flat n0. 5 mdma - got 20 mitsibushi;'s one the way from vauxhall Rating: 5

[VoidLivesOn]

chisme, I think you are really scaring some of us bro. I'm glad you realize you don't really want to kill yourself; this probably is not the place for you to talk about serious shit as you can see from some of these other posts.

I can't believe people are actually giving recommendations on how to OD and making jokes, how about some real sympathy people. I can't even tell when they're joking or not. It just makes me scared and sad when we're dealing with real human lives and someone's deep personal feelings and we see people responding like this.

I can see you're embarrassed about whatever it is, but maybe it isn't as bad as you think. Fuck dude, do you really think we're judging you? I'm not anyway. Just be calm and think things over, maybe save your money for the medical attention you seem to need/want rather than drugs (although perhaps a GOOD strong experience or two can give you some clarity and perspective to think things through better...)

Have you ever heard of Iboga/Ibogaine? People have used this strong psychedelic to cure themselves of all kinds of unwanted addictions, by allowing them to look back on their lives objectively and calmly. It's possible to see what you've done wrong in the past without judging yourself or thinking it's too late to change. It sounds like you mostly just need a clean slate, THEN you can deal with your problems. So maybe a therapeutic voyage IS in order, just make sure you come back from it, and hopefully you'll re-emerge in better health. okay?

I don't know your situation so this may be all wrong but I hope it works out better than you think.

Haha you act like at least the MAJORITY of people who get on internet forums talking about suicide actually do it.

[Aeta]

didnt get time to read everything everybody says but sounds like london sucks or wher ever the hell you live, get some money and come to america and yeah killing yourself over anything no matter how stupid painful or humiliatng it is, isnt worth it, we all have our tuff times some harder than others you just gotta keep on keepin on cant give up, cant take no for an answer

[tootsie roll]

ive decided im finished im done with it all this is just a struggle a long assed one its total bullshit ive come round to idea that im actualy goin to try and blow my brain off the scale.

im talking the biggest drug binge ever. ive got 5 months 2 save up every peice of money i got and im gonna buy all the drugs i can lay my mitts on.

so far

weed - easy
acid - on its way from bournmouth
cocaine- down the road flat n0. 5
mdma - got 20 mitsibushi;'s one the way from vauxhall
mushrooms - lyberty caps a friend brought from amsterdam
salvia - x20 1 gram


what else can i put on the list im basicly doin fear and loathing in las vegas but i dont plan on coming back this is it for me ive come to the state of mind where my future bleak. so im thinking what if i just tinged out major? like i got so mashed i never came back?








long story very short

i fucked up ...not just i fucked something up I mean i fucked my whole future up over years of abuse to a certain area of my body and i will never have enough money to fix. so this is sorta my last stand.





PS. no its not my dick or balls

Wanna talk?

[TonyD]

Mental problems can be solved. If there's something physical thats life threatening mate im sure the NHS has an obligatory charter to assist.

As for getting a new job, mate you live in London its a fucking mecca of jobs try living up here there's absoloutely FUCKALL. I know a ton of guys who moved to London just to get a job if they halfwit fucks can, no doubt you can.

As for the £1300 if you don't have the means to pay for it immediantly they WILL have to come to an arrangement with you in regards to paying at a rate which you can afford. Be assertive and don't let job interviewer put you off so what he laughed you should have laughed with him that would have put the motherfucker out a bit.

All in all mate don't sweat it, you fancy talking to me privately then definitely go ahead and add me on MSN im not the type of person to be judging people on their former or present lifestyle's trust me when i say that much.

You can catch me on [email protected] if you don't want to talk fair enough have a good one and chin up eh don't be letting no motherfucker try and put your shit down.

[chisme]

thank you. tony i may have to add u as sometimes i just get fucked in the mind and need someone o tell me im doin thing stupid sometimes i think what im saying is stupid then other days it seems the most inteligent choice i mean but someone in a diffrent frame of mind is able to look at it from a diffrent perspective. other peoples perspective gives me my bounds...my limit sorta because i know my mind dont wokr the same when i get in those moods.

Under the circumstances I wouldn't have a fucking clue what is wrong with you, but if your just wasting all your energy on getting the money to buy the very drugs that will kill you...go ahead and do it.Whats this procedure you were talking about you didn't have enough money for? Why not use the money your using to buy all these drugs and just get fucking fixed.OR ask people to help out? Surely you have friends and family?

yeah sure if it were that easy man my problem is gonna cost me like £2000 to get put right this is what i mena thou its like im gonna have to put what little social life i have on hold just so can work enough to et that much money...and i very muhc doubt im strong willed enough to save up........./.lol u knwo when u just wanna win the lottery without buying a ticket? lol i know stupid

[i luv u mary jane]

look u wanna get some homemade shit, i'm experimenting right now with differnt types of drug to try and make a, well a fuckin superdrug, i like to be able to smoke the end result instead of inject any takers for free samples when i'm done?

[mojoke]

look u wanna get some homemade shit, i'm experimenting right now with differnt types of drug to try and make a, well a fuckin superdrug, i like to be able to smoke the end result instead of inject any takers for free samples when i'm done?

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