Sorry for your loss there Ammie. That really truly is some messed up shit.. I don't drink much anymore or do i do any drugs, i just smoke pretty much, if not i would just drink all the time like i ussed to bofre i started smokin , really smokin, i used to drink a bottle of liquer+ some nights and i used to drink a sixpack before letting myself to go the bar to meet friends. Now i just show up baked. I hope that you and your family can find some solace in the coming days and weeks. Serious hippie love, Sativa Trip