honnestly, i hate civilization and society. i'd dedicate my life to changing it for the better, but i cant communicate with people, and cant amass a revolution online either.


honnestly, all i have left TO DO is blaze the rest of my life away.

but i cant do that, because i would need to grow the pot myself, since i cant get a job and buy it.

my hearing loss really holds me back, and the fact that no hearing aid actually helps just isnt right. i am pathetic, i cant do anything for myself, i am forced to rely on the minimal kindness that others have to offer me and help me out with, and i cant rely on that forever, sooner or later, im going to get kicked out of the house, and starve to death on the streets.


i might AS WELL just kill myself.


my life IS suicide. every day i die a little more, and come closer to being completely SOL and starve to death.