I'm not looking for sypathy, but the past couple of days have been hard. I feel like i'm all alone, and even my closest freinds don't care. Evry day i battle with my demons that are trying to get me to do heroin again. I have dreams were i'm using again and it feels like i'm back, i haven't touched the shit in over a year. One of my old freinds is back on the train and, I just want evrything to stop. i think if relapsed i would accualy try to kill myself again.