The Daily Confessional

[highjinx]

i wasted another day sitting on this bastard PC chair!:stoned:

[BizzleLuvin]

i have been very very depressed lately. whenever someone tries to comfort me, for some reason i get angry at them and blow them off. im starting to really anger my friends. when i am depressed, i eat very unhealthily. por ejemplo, hoy come una chimichanga con BIFE como mi almuerzo y helado de fresca para (i cant decide whether its 'por' o 'para') desayuno. anyway, i have this relentless habit of speaking spanglish, especially when im typing.

during calculus today I asked Cole to borrow his calculator. he says to me 'you're always borrowing things from me, go buy yourself your own crap'. i was absolutely fuming at this respone (cole and i never get along anyhow). so while he was at the board doing a problem, i snatched his calculator, to it to la bana de mujeras conmigo, and submerged it in a sinkfull of water. i left it there then went back to class and asked again to borrow his calculator.

i have a stomach ulcer from all this stress. honestly im glad it there because it gets me out of class and its something tangible and legitimate que puedo me quemo sobre.

i got stuck in two hours of standstill traffic yesterday. but i realized i would rather get stuck in traffic like that again than eat dinner with my family. so today i skipped dinner and told my moms i was stuck in traffic and that i was going to stop somewhere else to eat. i went to WaWa and bought a huge cup of coffee (breaking my year-long my vow to drink only organic, free-trade, indpendent coffee and tea) and a bag of flamin' hot cheetos. then i smoked a huge joint in the parking lot and went home and fell asleep. i never did finish my homework or talk to my moms.

i bought six vicodans and two percoset today.

[stangle12]

i was kinda in the same situation. my advice to you is to quit the opiates. that spun me into some crazy depression. The hardest part is to get out of the vortex. i advise you to go to a music concert. I went and saw queen, and it helped me a whole bunch.
i took a week off from all drugs, and then started smokin buds again, and i felt alot better. Soul searching is good.

[BizzleLuvin]

i was kinda in the same situation. my advice to you is to quit the opiates. that spun me into some crazy depression. The hardest part is to get out of the vortex. i advise you to go to a music concert. I went and saw queen, and it helped me a whole bunch.
i took a week off from all drugs, and then started smokin buds again, and i felt alot better. Soul searching is good.

most, if not all, of my depression is high-school and college related, i hardly think the painkillers have started anything seeing as i havent taken a pill in over sixth months. though i do admit that i am potentially damaging myself by taking those pills, because i KNOW i will take them. a while ago i was addicted to hydrocodone and i know very well the consequences. BUT I LOVE PAINKILLERS. anyway, during my time of depression, i saw g.love and special sauce LIVE at one of my favorite venues EVER! i shook his hand and had so much fun...and i was completely sober. i was on a happiness high for only a short while and i soon fell back into depression with the onslaught of more bad news. im the kind of person that just bitches and moans about being depressed and doesnt actually do anything about about it. so thats another confession of mine.
another confession: i just totally dissed you when u tried to help me. see what i mean????? im just stubborn and i dont like asking for help and i dont care to do anything about my problems. i apreciate your help but i just have this bad habit of withdrawling from life in general when i am down. i really hate it but i dont care enough to change it.
i hate my shrink. all she does is keep me waiting for two hours, writes me a thrity seconf prescription then charges me treinta dolares

[nuggetgirl]

Okay, you wanna hear the worst confession of all? I am going to be 22 on monday. I am married to a wonderful man and have a beautiful son. But my husband hates me...I mean, he's always trying to make me someone I'm not. His brother is 23, and everytime I get drunk we mess around. I am in LOVE with his brother. But his brother is too chickenshit to admit he loves me too. Or maybe he's just using me? I dunno. I'm thinking about moving to mexico..just to get away from it all. But the really wrong thing is, everyone thinks me and his brother are like brother and sister. We're not blood relation, but this is how our relationship has been for 6 years.
Oh how it feels to love a man who is using you.
Ecspecially when it's your best friend.

Niki

[BizzleLuvin]

my left breast feels very heavy today, it almost hurts.

[friendowl]

i think nuggetgirl is headed for disaster.
check yourself before you wreck yourself
ive seen people get really hurt in this type
of situation

[nuggetgirl]

I'd never admit it...not to anyone. And I know that he would always keep the secret. But it just sucks to know you love someone and be too late and already married to do anything about it. Reality bites...........

[friendowl]

its never too late.
but remember
they are brothers
you are just a girl
if your man finds out
the brother will forget about you quickly.
the worst thing you could do
you have already done.
be careful

[bedake]

Me and a few highschool buddies i played soccer with throughout the days of old tried playing again just for fun... I am so out of shape it is pathetic, sure i can run and all but god damn i probably cant even run a mile anymore

Im gonna start running again, mabye it was just the cold air