there may have been few other ways to do something better for her. unfortunately, i was very depressed over the shit and have never been in this type of situation.. so i wasn't sure what to do. that's why i came here asking you guys. everyone told me to go to the vet. but i swear i'm serious when i say that i was told over and over that they wouldn't see the dog unless i could pay for it. they wanted to put her to sleep and i was hoping that there was still something i could do about it. so i waited until today to go to the vet. it took me breaking down in front of my mom to get her to loan me the money. she knew the dog was sick and never offered to help either, therefore, being her usual asshole self, i didn't bother asking her for money, as she's too busy throwing it all away on her fucked up gambling problems. either way, you're right, if i didn't give a shit, i wouldn't have came here asking for help. i wouldn't have made the calls. i wouldn't have stayed up with her all night long trying to feed and water her. i did care. i just didn't know what to do.