I know how you feel, most of the time I feel like I'm in this like, trance I guess like you said. Stay busy and don't give up on the things you used to like to do or even the things you did daily; like school or work. I did and I find it even more depressing to just be sitting around all day. Don't give up, you still have lots of hope left and I'm sure you can find someone who won't hurt you, it may just take some time.