It sucks what happened to your grandma but its pretty darn clear you are a racist bigot. I dont know what they teach in your church but I am not impressed with the results! Do they really teach revenge and murder? I too am glad I am an atheist. Getting ripped off entitles you to be angry at the perpetrator and the perpetrator only. You are also entitled to vent some but you are waaaay over the top. What would you say if I got mugged by a black man on the streets of NY (yeah it happens all the time) and came here ranting about "fucking n****rs"? Do you think that being black gives you a license for racism? I am amazed you feel you can post this kind of shit here and expect a sympathetic hearing.

Shame, Shame Shame!

PS it sounds like your grandma is the only mensch in your family. Perhaps you ought to quit church and take some lessons from her: