i sorta feel like that right now...sudden bouts of depression and hopelessness..im in college too, and all my friends moved away to bigger cities and better things. i feel like a loser sometimes even though im in college too, and what makes it worse is that they make fun of me for staying home and going to the local university. and i also dont have any friends at school. but i say to myself everyday that things are gonna get better, this is just a period and it will end soon. and it is getting better, this is my 4th semester at college and this is the first one where i actually enjoyed going to school, and i actually have someone to hang out with in between classes and eat lunch with. i used to eat lunch alone every single day in my past three semesters, thats when i would be so depressed i would want to cry. ive started excersising regularly, and cut down on the bud, i just smoke on weekends. its great.