Help with Life Crisis...

[thebathroom]

Why not take back what it's taking from you?
I would say that I'm in a pretty shitty living situation right now, if I've got nothing to loose...because really I pretty much have nothing besides a bank account, then why not just train hop and listen to stories of hobos and drop acid in the desert?! Wandering is the best way to get as many experiances into the little span of time we call life.

[justinsane]

It was Bob Dylan who said "When you got nothin, you got nothin to lose."

i do believe this. and would love to be a wanderer.. but im young, only 19.

i do want to die young because i dont see joy after a certain point i think....

so id be a wanderer... but theres only so much for a youngin like me to get my hands on before im cashed ya know? then ill be back home facing the same shit... or maybe not... i wouldnt know

[thebathroom]

Ahh!!
Why do you think so negatively??
I'm only 18 and I'm starting this journey in a few months. Besides the little money I have, I am depending on people's kindness to get me to places.

Did you take a look at the site?

[justinsane]

Ahh!!
Why do you think so negatively??
I'm only 18 and I'm starting this journey in a few months. Besides the little money I have, I am depending on people's kindness to get me to places.

Did you take a look at the site?

im usually a very positive person. but i cant help but be negative lately as i dont see a light

[thebathroom]

Well it's understandable because you just broke up with your girlfriend. It's going to be shitty for a while.

If you need someone to talk to I can give you my msn... I have a lot of ideas up my sleeve, not all practical, but worth a try. I hope you get out of this.

[justinsane]

i would like your msn if you dont mind.. i dont really have anyone to talk to about this....

[thebathroom]

ok its

silent[_]film[_]starr[_] at
hot mail dot com.


sorry for the sillyness, I don't want anyone to find my address, but [_] means underscore.

[Trichocereus Panza]

just think of all the positive things you take for granted about your life. you have your eyesight, get out tomorrow and look at something beautiful. you have the gift of being able to walk (two good legs) which is more than some people have. just to be able to breathe deeply and appreciate the fact that youre ALIVE is sometimes enough. returning to the concrete reality of the body can feel amazingly good if you have a chance to calm it down.

most of the chance circumstances that make up your life at any given time are mostly in your head. instead of defining your life in terms of girlfriend/no girlfriend, job/no job, etc, just look at where you really are right now, in your physical body and in a certain physical environment, just feel what it is to be alive without judging it. this is a moment you will never get back again, and although its scary to think about the future and security and so on, you are every bit as alive as you will ever be. if you have the chance at each moment to decide whether youre going to make your life as you live it a living hell or a living heaven, i might see what it feels like just to feel good about that freedom even if there's no external reason to look at it that way.

dont worry if this doesnt work right away. just notice how you feel and be aware of it, and realize that every moment in life has this element of choice. i realize this doesnt help you actually get your gf or your job back, and those kind of problems will not go away instantly, but life always has so much to offer in the most unlikely places. the things that bring you joy will not be expected, so dont try to plan it.

like i said i know this doesnt SOLVE the problem but puts it in another light, and i can't help feeling that there is something very true about this advice, it has helped me many times in the past.

i hope you're feeling well enough to be kind to yourself; the worst thing about depression is feeling like you dont deserve happiness. but you do, always, and i hope this helps a little bit. i hope im making some sense.

[justinsane]

this is day 5 and its only gotton worse. i fell asleep at 12:00 and woke up at 3:30.

i just cant control my mind right now.

[bettybarbra]

i sorta feel like that right now...sudden bouts of depression and hopelessness..im in college too, and all my friends moved away to bigger cities and better things. i feel like a loser sometimes even though im in college too, and what makes it worse is that they make fun of me for staying home and going to the local university. and i also dont have any friends at school. but i say to myself everyday that things are gonna get better, this is just a period and it will end soon. and it is getting better, this is my 4th semester at college and this is the first one where i actually enjoyed going to school, and i actually have someone to hang out with in between classes and eat lunch with. i used to eat lunch alone every single day in my past three semesters, thats when i would be so depressed i would want to cry. ive started excersising regularly, and cut down on the bud, i just smoke on weekends. its great.