yeah the beatles totally rock but as for your situation, i think seeds are an awsome idea...do you really expect people to send them to you? you gotta be self sufficent when it comes to substances or you get to feeling a little helpless...(and makes you whiney) my boyfriend sells herb in town and im always used to kind of a constant free supply but recently he went away to europe. i was really bummed cause i spent every waking hour with him. without hima around i was so bord. whats worse is that i got fired the day after he left. i was broke and alone without a connect, now yeah life gets a lot worse and people are only gonna laugh at you if you bitch, thats what i learned frome the whole thing. be smart and creative when you want/ need a little buzz now and then if you stuck. call up an old friend or just find something to occupy your time get your mind off shit (read!) i know it sounds corny but to quote a man i admire very much,"some say they get a lot higher without drugs than with 'em, now ive never believed in this nonsense..."HST... anyway all im sayin is somethimes it fells good to enrich your mind and leave the petty shit behind. drugs should aid in opening your mind not closeing it.