Thank you so much for sharing that Lemonboy. To be quite honest what you described sounds nearly identicle with my day to day life. I question whether I truly suffer from depression as I have generally been an upbeat person in my time. Currently I have a lot on my plate and am certain the combination is leading to my overall depressive mind state. I also suffer from social anxiety that almost feels extreme at times, your description of editing the words before they come out is exactly it amongst other aspects im sure you are familiar with. A number of years ago a friend of mine offered up some xanax while I was expiriencing panic attacks quite frequently, the xanax felt like that breathe of air I just couldnt seem to grasp. Overall im really not sure where to go from here. I have long felt therapy would be of benefit yet always put it off. I think it is finally time to speak with someone so thanks for your input I really appreciate it, and as far as cannibus goes I find it can work wonders on both anxiety and depression too. I love that big dumb smile I get Thanks again.